Making Choices

There is a story told about Yossele the Miser who lived in Krakow, Poland. 

Yossele,  or perhaps he might be colloquially known as Joe, was a mean of great means. He lived in a palatial abode, surrounded by luxury. The local charity collectors appealed to him regularly for donations, but Joe was consistent in his response. 

It was always a flat out No. 

The most heart wrenching stories wouldn’t move Joe. 

He held on to his fortune with hands clasped shut. 

Time passed on, and even Joe could not outwit old age. He slowly succumbed to illness. 

The leaders of the community visited Joe on his deathbed and gave him an ultimatum.

Either he would share his wealth with the indigent paupers who desperately needed support, or he would receive a simple burial, no pomp and circumstance as befitting his station, rather just a grave in the least prominent part of the cemetery. 

Even in his weakened state, Joe, or Yossele remained intractable. 

No charity. 

The day dawned and Yossele returned his soul to his Maker. 

He received the most perfunctory of funerals, as the community leaders laid him to rest in disgust. 

Then something unusual started happening. 

The leaders of the community were deluged with requests for charity. People who had never asked for money before, came with desperate requests for assistance. 

The community leaders were befuddled.

What had created such an economic crisis?

The leadership started interviewing the supplicants to find out what had happened. 

It seems that all these individuals would receive a weekly envelope filled with money which contained enough  to supply their needs. 

This week, for the first time in decades, they had not received an envelope and they were now desperately in need. 

It did not take long for the communal leadership to realize they had made an egregious error. 

Yossele the Miser had secretly been sustaining almost the entire town for almost half a century. 

He had done it quietly, wanting to preserve the dignity of the recipients, and was willing to accept censure and ridicule to keep their secret safe. 

Yossele the Miser kept the 479th of the 613 commandments. 

To give charity. 

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Don't Overlook The Small Things

When I was a little girl I had a fear. 

When my parents went out in the evening, I was afraid they wouldn’t come home. 

I can’t explain the root of this paranoia, perhaps it’s a symptom of second generation post Holocaust trauma. 

But it was very real. 

I would stand by the window and cry bitterly. 

Only when I would hear the footsteps of my parents in the hallway outside of my apartment could I finally calm down. 

The quiet footfalls consoled me. 

Then I could come to myself. 

This week’s Torah portion is called Eikev which means heel. 

You may recall that root of Eikev in the name of our forefather Yaakov or Jacob, who was named so because he held onto the heel of his brother Esau as he was born. 

We also find the root word Eikev when we refer to the pre-messianic time, called in the ancient Aramaic language, 

Ikvesa DMeshica, the footsteps of the Messiah.  

The Torah portion begins with an exhortation to listen, to the do the commandments to preserve the connection with Gd. 

But why use the esoteric word Eikev in our portion? 

It is actually superfluous. 

Why not just say “listen”?

Rashi, the main Torah commentary, focuses on the word Eikev, heel, and understands it allegorically. 

What should we be listening for, paying attention to in order to preserve our connection with Gd?

We should focus on all manners of connection, even the small, seemingly insignificant mitzvot that we may feel are insignificant so we figuratively step on them with our heel. 

We may perceive a mitzva as lacking import  and we walk all over it, so to speak. By doing so, we lose a possibility of a deeper connection, one which will ensure the covenant is kept between Gd and the Jewish people, and ultimately bring us to the end of days, the Messianic times. 

In life, we tend to focus on the big stuff and may overlook the small things. 

But this is a mistake. 

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Have You Ever Experienced An HP Moment?

Have you ever experienced an HP moment?

HP stands for Hashgacha Pratit, in English,  Divine Providence. 

As Yitta Halberstam, author of the Small Miracles series says

“coincidence is a tap on the shoulder from Gd”. 

Nothing in life is a coincidence. 

Everything happens for a reason. 

My husband is a wandering Rabbi. 

One of his favorite duties is teaching in some of Atlanta’s finest high schools, during their lunch break. 

Rabbi Silverman goes to a number of schools and brings pizza and conversation on Jewish topics to high school students. 

A number of years ago, the president of the club in one of the schools brought in an article. The young lady, who was the president of the club, proudly showed my husband an article featuring her great grandfather, Rabbi Jerome Tolochko. 

The name rang a bell with my husband and after conferring with his father, ob’m, it turned out that my husband’s great grandmother was a Tolochko. 

We had found long lost relatives!

At the end of the senior year, we were invited to her graduation party. 

We arrived a bit early, and were given the grand tour of the home and all the Jewish artifacts within. 

My husband spotted some old books encased in a bright red box. The books had Hebrew writing on the outside. Our new relative explained she had no idea what the books were all about. She had selected them from her grandfather’s collection of books because she liked the bright red box, it caught her eye. 

After inquiring, my husband was given permission to peruse the books and was astonished to find novellae, original writing, on all six Tractates of the Talmud, the Oral Torah. 

With the gracious permission of our newly found cousins, my husband embarked on an investigative mission to discover who wrote these works and what they actually contained. 

The manuscript was written in a copperplate Hebrew script and difficult to decipher. Eventually it was sent to Israel, and a scholar worked on the manuscript for over a year. 

It turns out that this work was composed in Grodno, which is in Belarus, in the 1840s. 

It has approbations from world class Torah scholars of the time, whose rare signatures are included within. 

This rare and illuminating manuscript, written by my husband’s great, great uncle, was printed this week, the Torah within available now for study for scholars and laymen alike. 

The author writes in the document that he hopes his work will be printed and brought to light so that future generations will be able to study his elucidations on the Torah. 

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What Actions Do We Do That Make Eternal Impact?

Today I learned about kindness. 
 I “attended” a funeral of a woman who lived a meaningful and productive life. 
In the eulogies, the children and grandchildren did not focus on the “great” accomplishments of the matriarch of their family. Rather they remembered through laughter and tears the delicious meals she made for them. They recalled with happiness the wonderful conversations they shared with her and the pride she took in their accomplishments. They recalled her sense of humor and the love she showered upon them. 
This woman’s life may have ended on this physical realm, but she has left an eternal legacy of love and caring which will live on eternally in her family. 
This called to mind a statement I heard many times from
Rebbitzen Zahava Braunstein, a noted Jewish educator who taught and influenced thousands of women. 
She would ask us to imagine if a woman passed away and was going to her eternal rest and then was given a momentary reprieve, the opportunity to do one more act in this world, what would that woman choose to do?
Would it be to run to the office and close one last deal?
Or, as she would say, would it be to cook one last pot of hearty soup that would feed her family physically and nourish them emotionally as the aroma and texture of the soup created with love and feeling would linger long after she had gone. 
What actions do we do that make eternal impact?
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To Do The Best We Can

This is a story of stereotypes. 
There was a house painter of Italian descent. 
Let’s call him Tony. 
He was discovered by a Jewish interior designer we will call Phyllis. 
Tony’s star began to rise and everyone wanted him to paint their home. 
Goldie Schwartz was redecorating and she only wanted the best 
(I told you this a stereotypical story) so she hired Tony for the job. 
When Tony arrived to begin work, Goldie was ready for him. 
She told him all of her requirements in rapid fire instruction and concluded her soliloquy by saying “Tony, you are the best in the business. I hired you because I want it to be perfect!”
A smile spread across Tony’s face. 
“Let me tell you what I learned from my Rabbi” he said. 
This is where the story starts to veer from stereotypical. 
Goldie was shocked. 
In her vast experience, Italian house painters did not have Rabbis. 
“You have a Rabbi?” She asked incredulously, “who is your Rabbi?”
Tony took out his wallet and removed a photograph. It was the picture of a saintly looking man with a beautiful smile. It was indeed a photograph of the Bobover Rebbe, Rabbi Shlomo Halberstam, a Holocaust survivor and leader of a Hasidic dynasty. 
Tony told Goldie how he initially met Rabbi Halberstam. 
“It was the beginning of my career, one of my first jobs, and I nervously knocked on the door of the client. The door was opened by a smiling rabbinical figure. He welcomed me warmly and ushered me in. 
“We need to talk” the Rabbi said. I was ready for the standard speech about doing a perfect job. Imagine my surprise when the Rabbi asked  me instead if I had eaten breakfast. When I responded in the negative, the Rabbi sat me down and proceeded to prepare a hearty  breakfast for me! 
After breakfast the Rabbi asked me if I had ever heard that the Jewish people had a Temple in Jerusalem that had been destroyed thousands of years ago. 
The Rabbi explained that when the Temple stood it was the ultimate in perfection. However, due to our sins, the Temple was destroyed and since then there is nothing perfect. 
“So Tony” the Rabbi said, “I know you will do a job to the best of your ability, do the best you can, but don’t worry, it doesn’t need to be perfect, because it can’t be!”
Tony concluded his story and painted Goldie’s house to the best of his ability. 
Not perfect. 
But close. 
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The Paradigm Shift

I don’t like change. 

I am a creature of habit. 

I take comfort in the expected. 

My husband thrives on change. 

He embraces it and relishes the opportunity to allow new ideas, people and challenges to propel forward. 

Sometimes our views may therefore clash. 

I often recognize the wisdom in his attitude. But it’s hard for me. 

I am working on it. 

It’s a paradigm shift. 

JWC Atlanta just concluded our 15th Israel trip with Momentum. 

It was 8 days of ancient Jewish wisdom, connecting to the land of Israel and experiencing it all with an absolutely incredible group of women. 

My circle of love has expanded exponentially!

One of the many ideas shared with us by our trip leader, the inimitable Adrienne Gold Davis, was in reference to the paradigm shift. 

She encouraged us to look at the situations in our lives as opportunities. 

Adrienne mentioned the true story of a shoe chain that sent a sales rep to uncharted territory to open new shoe stores. 

The salesman sent a telegram back to the head office. 

“Send no shipments of shoes. 

They do not wear shoes here”. 

The head office sent another salesman to scope out the potential and he sent the following telegram 

“Send as many shoes as you can find. They don’t wear shoes here”. 

What a perfect example of a paradigm shift. 

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So much of life happens behind the scenes

When I got married, my husband introduced me to summer camp. 
I know that sounds backwards, usually camp is part of childhood. But when I was growing up I spent my summers in London and Israel with my grandparents and did not have the usual camp experiences. 
Until I got married. 
My husband was on the staff of a boys camp in the Catskill mountains and we continued to work there for over three decades. 
I was hooked!
I loved every minute. 
However, getting to this utopia was another story all together. 
It meant packing up the family and clothes and toys, loading up the van, and driving for hours upon hours from Atlanta to upstate New York. 
It was quite the adventure. 
And mostly quite uneventful. 
However, on one of our drives to camp we witnessed a terrifying incident. 
We were driving on the highway  and a car near us lost control. It veered into the concrete divide barrier and narrowly missed hitting the car in front of it. We were all screaming in the car as we witnessed this happening. Incredibly, the driver of car that was almost hit seemed completely oblivious to the drama that he just avoided and continued on his merry way. 
We were very shaken by the near miss and relieved that tragedy had been averted. 
We kept reliving the incident over and over until at one point my husband commented that we saw the incident in clear view as it happened in front of us, but the driver who was almost impacted, probably doesn’t realize he just experienced a miracle. 
He will come home and be annoyed that there was traffic, and his boss gave him a hard time and will grouch about another same old same old day, without ever realizing  he was just gifted a miracle, a new lease on life. 
To him it’s just another day. 
In this week’s Torah portion which is called Chukat, which means decrees, the Jewish people sing a song of praise for the Well of water. This song takes place close to the end of the journey in the desert. This week’s Torah portion actually takes place almost 40 years since the last portion. In Chukat  Miriam the prophetess dies. Immediately after her death, the well which traveled with the nation and provided water all those years, dried up. This showed the people that the fresh water that had sustained them in the desert, was in Miriam’s merit. 
Because Miriam had stayed at the water’s edge to see what would happen to her brother as he floated on the waters of the Nile, she was rewarded by becoming the provider of water for Moses' people. 
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They Blossomed First

This week we commemorated the third yahrzeit, the anniversary of the passing, of a great man and a personal mentor. For over 30 years, my family had the privilege of spending summers in a camp in the Catskills mountains in upstate New York. The staff of this camp became like family to us, and the memories we have of those halcyon days, continue to bring us joy and inspiration. 
It also gave us the opportunity to become close friends with Rabbi David Trenk of blessed memory. 
Rabbi Trenk was by no means your standard, run of the mill rabbinical type. He exuded joy on an exuberant level, teaching in thundering but loving tones. He was wont to say “if a student asks a question, it is the most important question in the world. Why? Because he is asking it! Because the student wants to learn”
He also looked at everyone with complete positivity. His year long job involved working with students who had fallen through the “cracks” of the educational system. 
Rabbi Trenk never viewed his students as anything but great. And his persistent belief in their greatness convinced them they were truly great. 
At his funeral, one of the students gave a tearful eulogy. He said when he and his friends were younger, no one wanted them. But now they are successful and community leaders everyone wants them. Only Rabbi Trenk saw their greatness back then and loved them for who they were. 
He wouldn’t sit still for a moment, constantly on the go, pursuing his mission to help his students succeed. 
It was poetry in motion. 
This middah, or attribute spilled over into all his interactions with the people he would encounter. 
The mechanic who serviced his car, told Mrs. Trenk that a regular customer at his shop was a big, burly, scary looking truck driver. When he would walk into the shop everyone shrank back and took a step away. One day Rabbi Trenk and the truck driver entered together. Rabbi Trenk greeted the gentleman with great warmth and his trademark exuberance, calling him “my brother”!  After the truck driver exited, one of the other patrons asked Rabbi Trenk if he even knew the man in question, let alone, calling him a brother. 
“He is a brother” responded Rabbi Trenk “did you not see the Magen David necklace he wore around his neck?”
He is indeed a brother. 
No one else looked closely enough to see. 
No one else looked past the externals. 
No one saw the innerness of the person. 
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Home should be a place of acceptance

One of our daughters is blessed with a best friend. They have been like sisters since infancy. This is not a relationship to be taken for granted. These two are not peas in a pod. They are in fact polar opposites. From an early age our daughter loved to read. She would get lost in a good book to the degree that you couldn’t get any communication from her. Our daughter also loved sports-the ultimate tomboy- she was always ready for any ball game going. She had and has no trouble keeping up with her brothers. The best friend was the ultimate girly girl. Dolls, playing house and tea parties were her go to. There is one vignette, captured for eternity on a video, where our daughter is sitting with her nose in a book as her friend tries to get her attention to play dolls. All of a sudden our daughter notices the boys are beginning a game of basketball. As she heads out to join the game, her little friend says in frustration “just go, go alweady”.
If you are scratching your heads over this duo you are not alone. Yet, these two somehow were able to see above their differences, tap into what united them, to create and sustain a lifelong friendship. 
This week’s Torah portion is Shelach, which means send. The Jewish people had their encounter with Gd and Mount Sinai and now they are headed to the land of Israel. In anticipation of the upcoming conquest, the people requested a reconnaissance mission to spy the land. 
Gd acquiesces and responds to Moses with the words  “Shelach lecha anashim” send for you people, spies. Gd says if you feel the need to send out spies, so go already, and send them out. 
The journey from Mt. Sinai to the land of Israel should have taken eleven days. 
Instead it took 40 years. 
Did Moses not stop to ask directions?
What took so long?
It was the report of the spies that was the source of their downfall. 
The spies came back with frightful stories that frightened the people. 
The Kli Yakar, 16th century commentator notices that the the word for people, anashim, is the male gender. It was only men who were sent. 
The Kli Yakar comments that if only women had been sent, this whole debacle would have never taken place. The women had faith, they saw the miracles of the plagues and the splitting of the sea and they believed that the Land of Israel would be a place of blessing. 
Instead, the men returned from the spying with a bad report which bodes ill, and cried all that night. 
The commentaries ask why does it say “that” night?
Because they cried for naught that night and accepted an evil report against the land, they were destined to cry for a reason in the future on that night, when truly terrible things would take place for our people. 
“That night” was the 9th day of the month of Av, the date when in the future, both of the Temples would be destroyed in Jerusalem in 586BCE and in 70CE. 
This lack of faith, the inability to see the possibilities of a life in the land of Israel, resulted in a decree that all men between the ages of 20-60 would die in the ensuing 40 years in the desert, never to have the ability to go to Israel. 
During those 40 years, on the eve of the 9th of Av, these men would dig graves and lie in them. The next morning some of their number would not climb out of that grave. 
In this manner, the generation of men died in the desert, punished for their lack of faith. 
We can understand why that generation was punished for their lack of faith. 
But why does the 9th of Av continue to be a day of mourning?
The first Temple in Jerusalem was destroyed because we sinned the three cardinal sins, idol worship, murder and illicit relations. But 70 years later the Temple was rebuilt. Apparently we understood the punishment and learned from our mistakes. But the second Temple was destroyed for an entirely different reason. The second Temple was destroyed for the sin of baseless hatred. We were not able to see there is more than unites us than what divides us. 
And we have not righted that wrong. 
We are still judging one another unfavorably. 
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Graduations - Unlocking Potential

I have a soft spot for graduations.
The attendees are in a great mood. 
Parents are relieved that their children have accomplished their goals and a tuition milestone is behind them. 
Graduates are relieved that they have accomplished their goals and a bright, perhaps scary, but possibility filled future lies ahead. 
And, the teachers are relieved that they have accomplished their goals and their charges are no longer their responsibility. 
The unrealized potential in the room is palpable. 
The possibilities are endless. 
The next part of the story is waiting to unfold and come to life as each individual progresses on the next chapter and will move forward - depending on their personal motivation. 
I had the honor of participating in two graduations today, one in person and one via zoom. 
Our granddaughter graduated from nursery school. I am not biased when I tell you her smile was ginormous and her performance stellar. 
But she absolutely won my heart when she ran off the stage momentarily to give her little sister a hug. 
Now, as sisters go, these two are close. But they still have their arguments, and the big sister is often frustrated and annoyed when the little one destroys her toys or art projects. It was heart warming to see that in this milestone moment, she put it all aside to give her sister a hug. 
The second graduation was in person. 
It was the commencement ceremony of a small girls high school. 
The charge to the graduates was offered by Rabbi David Goldwasser, a noted author and lecturer. 
He addressed this week’s Torah portion which is called Behaalotcha, which means when you go up. (That refers to the commandment to Aaron, the High Priest, regarding his going up to light the Menora in the Tabernacle.)
Rabbi Goldwasser referenced another incident in the portion where Moses is overwhelmed by his responsibility of tending to the Jewish people. 
They lodge a constant litany of complaints and Moses can take  it no longer. 
Moses tells Gd he cannot bear the burden. 
He just cannot do it. 
According to the Sages, Gd tells Moses you CAN do it, you have the hidden powers inside that you can accomplish great things. You just need to know how to unlock that potential. 
There was a famous Kabbalist known as the Baba Sali. He lived in Morocco in the early 1900s till he moved to Israel. (His granddaughter was my roommate!). When the Baba Sali lived in Morocco the area he lived in was dangerous and crime ridden. Going out alone at night was not recommended. One evening the Baba Sali announced to his attendant that at midnight he would be going to the ritual bath/Mikva as he was wont to do before any major occasion. The attendant was concerned but accompanied him in the dark. When they reached the door of the Mikva the attendant tried to unlock the door. No matter how hard he tried, the lock would not yield. Finally the Baba Sali took the key and the lock  turned effortlessly. 
He told his attendant 
“if you really want to open doors in this world, if you put all your effort into it, doors will open for you.”
Don’t have a fixed mindset. 
You CAN do it. 
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